Friday, July 19, 2013

Stupid Dumb Breast Cancer: It just hit me you have breast cancer


I was all set to write a new post then I decided to read last year's one. So as I type I am crying. Yes I have come a LONGGGG way but to think about this time last year overwhelms me. The emotions, the anger, the fright comes all rushing back. When I say fright I mean like scared shit less could die not Freddy Kruger in the boiler room.  I will never forget that and I do not want to. I want to remember how I felt so I can help all those joining the club, this horrible loving supportive cancer club.

Last year this time I was stressing real stress as I prepared for surgery. I cannot believe it has been a year, it seems like yesterday…….





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12 comments:

  1. I'm walking the walk with you my fellow bcf. Got through the surgeries, treatments and the reality is hitting hard. Everyday is a little different (thank goodness). Love/hate Stupid Dumb Breast Cancer. Hang in there!

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    1. XO this year stuff is rough. But I am still upright and doing fineeee XO

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  2. That moment doesn't ever just disappear. Maybe it becomes more quiet over time, maybe . . . but it's there, and it's damn powerful. Cheers to one year forward, and another to celebrating decades down the line. ~Catherine

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  3. Congrats on getting this far! You are obviously not alone.. most if not all of us remember the day with vivid clarity.
    I still freakout when I get a weird or strange pain, Or when my body does something unexpected. I thought these feelings would go away or at least quiet the fuck down... nope..here's me paranoid hypochondriac... my oncologist cringes when I walk thru the door..

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    1. Crazy how this is all just the dream that is so very clear right?

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  4. I totally get where you are coming from. Others are telling me how happy they are that it's not last year at this 'time'. I've got a lump (not the cancer kind) in my chest and am feeling so emotional when I think about the night before surgery when everything changed forever. Yes - we have completed one very tough, rough year. Hooray for us. But I know neither of us will truly celebrate until this horrible, rotten, evil, stupid, dumb breast cancer is cured!

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    1. XO I am so proud that I have "met" you! did you see I gave you little shout out in a previous blog xoxox

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  5. I just started reading your blog. I was diagnosed with very early stages if breast cancer on July 8, 2013. Reading your blog helps so thank you! Since mine has been caught early everyone says well at least its early and if you had to get cancer at least its this one. I honestly feel that I'm being a baby, but I want to scream at these people! Reading here made me feel I wasn't being a baby, but normal so thank you and keep staying strong!!

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  6. I know I can never begin to understand how you feel, but I sure wish it gets better for you. I admire you for your courage and strength after everything that happened. May your hopes and spirit not falter.

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