Wednesday, August 1, 2012


This is my favorite spot on earth. It just makes me smile like a real smile. We are here with our cousins, my dad, G-Deb, and our friends will be here tomorrow. The boys have caught crabs (no no do not go there), sea stars, some huge fish and other crawly things and that was just half a day on the beach. It is dinner time and like always too much food and booze. I will sit on my ass and tell them what to do, just like always. Of course, if another cup of ping pong balls fall on my head or kitchen sprayer soaks me or I sit on a farting cushion I am going to smack someone, HARD! Good days ahead, hitting Welfleet tomorrow, mmmmmmm OYSTERS!!!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Yesterday versus Today

Yesterday was plain awful but that's not now that's then!  Sorry a little musical Annie today, just be glad you aren't here to HEAR it, you know I love to sing like a cat in heat and dying. I was pissed, exhausted, annoyed, and weepy (yes weepy). I had myself a day of crying it out with some good girlfriends, 8 kids, a husband, and some long distant friends. I hate crying it makes me feel like a pansy, but my peeps made me feel strong. I am pissed that breast cancer has messed up my summer, changed and mutilated my body, has made me so effin tired, and has controlled me. I want to sit in the sun and watch my kids play. I want to make them dinner. I want to not look down and see my body so altered. I want to do more than go get cleaned up without being exhausted.  I want to say when I go on vacation. I WANT AN UMPALOMPA!!!! I sat yesterday and cried and had my hand held and my girlfriends say they were thankful I was finally letting it out, boy did I release it yesterday. I love that people want to help me through this but its hard unless you have been through it or have boobs. So, please bare  (chested only) with me and just stand by my side until the weepy bitch is gone and the regular bitch is back (I could have sung Elton John here but I do not want to go over board). But today..........

THE DRAINS AND OUT!!!!! HIPPEE KI AYYYY MO FO. I could not be happier, really thrilled. Cape Cod here we come, ohhhhh yeahhhhhhhhh

Monday, July 30, 2012

Time of Your Life

That was the song playing in the room while I had only 2 fucking drains pulled, I mean how apropos. I totally get the reasons why they only pulled 2 but it does not mean I have to be happy about it.  It felt weird and gross and made Genevieve a little sick I think (now that is a friend!!). The one side did not hurt but the left cause it is so tender, WOOZA! I go to my breast care doctor tomorrow and hopefully she pulls the other 2. If NOT then I guess I am that woman on the beach! I think I am taking embarrassing my kids to another level.  My friend's mom lives on the Cape and is a nurse so if worse comes to worse she can pull them because I am days away from them getting pulled and I really need to go. Am I nuts I ask you?? Well, couple of things here...YES I am, but she is a very experienced nurse and I trust her.  Not so sure Tom is thrilled about it. She is a hard ass so she won't pull them by me begging. YET, I go way back with this woman and I think she may find joy in it, like a lot of JOY!! So I guess my point in all this is I will know tomorrow if I will be drain free.

Another turning point a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go

So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable but in the end
It's right I hope you've had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Sunday Dinner

Through thick and thin it is your family that sustains you. With love, support and in my family's case nourishment. Thanks so much to my spectacular cousin, Heather who provided an Italian Sunday fest! She even went to Lyncourt Bakery for half moons and bread. She even made pizzelles. She even brought fried calamari. She even brought Greens (OK Bunny made them but she dropped them off and they were delish I almost ate the whole tray). She brought love. We have played paper dolls as little girls and waitress with each other for the aunties as they played cards, we have partied HARD, watched each other go off to college, get married even had babies at the same time, spent EVERY New Year's day together, and we have so much more to see and do as a family. Of course, we will do them  as the old aunties with her "B" size saggy boobs and my REAL "B" perky ones, but mostly we will always be there for each other. Heather is a sweet woman and I am proud to call her family!