Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Filler up

Went today for my follow up check and everything looks good. Healing is coming along nicely, too bad it still looks like a patch work to me, but the doctor knows best. I have some air pockets,but  there isn't fluid build up any more! I decided to get the first fill next Friday, unleaded or desiel? I am nervous yet thrilled the process is coming along and the final results will be in. I may get one more fill before the healing of the scars and tissue begins. We scheduled the surgery for November 9, I have a very important holiday party on December 1st and NEED to get the right dress for! I hope to show the girls off in a fabbbbbbuuuuuulllloooouuusssss dress and my surgery heels!
So on a very important part of this visit, I got cleared to add some weights to my work out and kick it back into gear! This could not be better timing because my weight bitch is back today, that is MC FYI. Come Sunday morning I get to get back to class. Yipppppeeeeeeee!!!! Ok, so she did say 3 or 5 pounds only and bitch push ups only but still this makes me so happy like over the top excited. Not working out has directly affected my mood, you are just one work out away from a good mood, so I am like 500 behind. I just want my fucking body back, granted it is the updated remodeled version but it's my body.
Tomorrow is the great NYS Fair. And anyone who knows me- I mean anyone- knows that opening day is my favorite day. As a little girl my grandma and I would go have breakfast and wait until the buildings open. "If it's free, it's for me" was her favorite saying, my Sammy boy now says it the whole day. We went to the fair every single day, literally, even if it was just for dinner. We went when it opened and stayed until it closed. I worked there all through high school and loved every minute of it.  I am so happy I do not have to miss opening day. If you ever get lost anywhere at the fair just call me I know every short cut there is. So tomorrow if you are trying to get ahold of me, don't stress that I am not getting back to you right away, remember I will be looking at the cows, love them, checking out the chickens, why are they near the chicken dinner restaurants?, holding chicks in 4H with my boys, and eating....ahhhhh eating! Deep fried pickles, deep fried snickers, deep fried Oreos, deep fried Mac n cheese, corn on the cob, wine slushies, AND PIZZA FRITTE only at the Villa only!! Oh and the butter sculpture......oh wait and the sand much to see and do, sooooooo excited!

Monday, August 20, 2012

My sweet little cousin sending me love

My little cousin Halen made this for me! So so so sweet, we all start out that way.
I want to explain why this was posted. Halen is 9 years old and showing her support to me the best way she knows how. The bigger picture is this... She is going to be breast cancer aware for the rest of her life. She will remember to get herself checked and hopefully remind her friends. This is why I am so proud of this rock and shell creation!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Crazy ass loud Italian cancer free party

Sometimes I think my family just needs an excuse to party. What better one than me being cancer free!? My cousin hosted the day complete with pink well...everything. The food and wine flowed as did the water balloons and pranks. Some may find it humorous to play a joke on others but they tend to forget who they are dealing with. You know who you are! Being with all my family today meant so much to me. This has been a long, stressful, painful summer and I am ready to just be me. People keep telling me how strong I am well these people are what make me powerful. I am the woman I am today directly because of every person there. Some added wisdom and guidance, some strength, power and humor and sarcasm,  but all added love. We maybe crazy and loud and crazy again with some extra loud but when push comes to shove you better not mess with us because we are strong for each other to a fault. Thanks so much my crazy ass loud Italian family, this lumpy stupid dumb breast cancer summer did not stop our partying!
All Craziness
Big Sister Lori

My Daddy and G-Deb
My brother Al
Sweet Halen Rose


The Hostess Heather

My girls and my boy