Run for Life



Right before surgery my girlfriends signed my chest with LOVE

I have been thinking non stop about this Melissa Etheridge song and I always attribute it to Race for the Cure. It really isn't about literally running a race to me. It is about running for life. DUH, I know the title is “I Run for Life” but I was thinking in the walk/race sense.
It has been almost a year since they cut into my body (July 20) yet the pain isn't miles behind me. That mirror is a reminder about where I was, how far I came and what is still in store.  The fear is still a fierce beast roaring into my ear every now and then. Not just for me but I am talking for all my warrior friends no matter their cancer. I keep on spreading the word because it is the hope I need to comfort my fellow warriors. It keeps me whole and keeps me sane which we all know is a hard task.  I am still learning so much about cancer, the gift that keeps on giving. The emotional part the doctors forget to tell you and the after effects that I think get brushed under the carpet.  The pain of the scars, anxiety that it will come back, the fear that my friends will die, the happiness that I am alive, the guilt that I am still here and how to cope with all those emotions in every day life. That is the darkness that you start to possess.
There is no doubt that cancer cuts into your body but your soul?? Yes wise ass I have a soul. It did cut into my soul but my family, friends, Cancer Connection peeps healed that and made it stronger. Through them and all those angels that have taken wings we RUN! Not for a walk/race but for LIFE. Those that enter this horribly yet beautiful club, it doesn’t matter the cancer to our warriors we are all running together. For Talia, Andrew, Lola, Lara, Ciel, DeeAnn, Jen, Ashley, Nancy, Anne Marie, Anne, Scorchy, Jenny, Jeri, Maria, Lauren, Heather, Scott, Jackie, Bridget, Zach, Kathy, Norma, Molly and all the others I have grown to call my friends we together with those who love and support us come out of the darkness and shine on. So remember if the darkness comes to you there is a whole team running for you, for your sister, your wife, your friend running for answers.  Wearing a tiara of course!
I Run for Life
It's been years since they told her about it
The darkness her body possessed
And the scars are still there in the mirror
Everyday that she gets herself dressed
Though the pain is miles and miles behind her
And the fear is now a docile beast
If you ask her why she is still running
She'll tell you it makes her complete

I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend:| I run for life
It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken it's toll
And they cut into my skin and they cut into my body
But they will never get a piece of my soul
And now I'm still learning the lesson
To awake when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for us all

I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend:| I run for life
And someday if they tell you about it
If the darkness knocks on your door
Remember her remember me
We will be running as we have before
Running for answers
Running for more
I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend
I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend:| I run for life
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I run for your mother your sister your daughter your wife
I run for you and me my friend:| I run for life